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so yeah i had this 2 period + a pulled fire alarm breakdown with stone and guidance Friday. i called mom told her i be at evo and to pick me up and she said we would talk about why i was at guidance later. evo was good, got some homework. amazingly my mom gave me the condensed version of what guidance said, mainly to ignore my aunt like everyone else does. Mom also mention me talking to someone at a cheap "bridges" b/c she thinks that if i tell guidance too much the school or something will come involved. whatever! anyhow she also mention today that i should talk to my doctor about gong back on antidepressants. from 12-15 or gr. 6-9 if you wish i was on them b/c during my period i would get depressed. And today (yes on my period since Thursday) I felt depressed-like. i didn't want see my best friend, all wanted to do after my sat class is lay around and veg out. m/b it cause my room's boiling or b/c my period drained me this time around. also didn't want to got on trail of terror but honestly kate, come on , if you plan a gathering of friends pick a freakin' time. OMG! however mom got me thinking about both things i'm not sure if i need anti-depressents, think i might, i lack focus in most of my life now all i want to do really is hide and shelter my self from everyone else (family wise), don't like being home but once i'm there i'm in my room hiding in my computer. but still i might just once again be blowing everything out of portion, thus i need to see so one at a cheap "bridges". i don't know, ive been so i don't know lately. i say i'm tired and out-of-it by default b/c i don't know how i feel. m/b i am depressed. I've i been depressed off the meds with the past three years before. god all of this is confusing.
hey this amazing pic from like 3 weekends ago when i think i was happy. the dragonfly stay for like two minutes while me and rissa took pics. 
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| 22 things to do before 22 |
[01 Sep 2007|06:44pm] |
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Wow i'm lazy with posting shit. so there it goes things to do b/f 22. why 22 be/ i'm lame and won't get drunk until i'm legally allowed to.
22 things to do b/f 22 (in no particular order)
1. get third hole in elope
2. get nose pierced
3. lose 100 lbs.
4. sell art work for at least $75 to someone
5. make own website
6. own copy of photoshop
7. own tablet
8. have a decent job (since i'll be in my Senior year of college that will probably mean retail but m/b i could be a sectary at an art museum while in college and then go on to what ever type of illustration or art thing i'll be doing)
9. figure out what i'm doing with my life like in detail (it's awful i had more details about my future when i was five then i do now. the only difference is now i can answer the question "what is your dream car?". which by the way is VW Beetle in platinum gray w/ sunroof)
10. get platinum gray bug with sunroof, heated seats, leather seats, ect.
11. date (one thing i never really but a lot of though and energy into but i should start being 17 and never been kissed is one this but 18 or 19 is just embarrassing)
12. figure out why i hate drinking coffee but love coffee ice (namely hoods
13. figure out how to draw the human figure properly
14. Leave CT (that's the easiest one since i'll be going to college out of state, whether my mom likes it or not)
15. cross the Atlantic Ocean at least once (i would like to see Dublin, London, France, Spain, Italy, Switzerland)
16. go to San Francisco, CA
17. design and get tattoo of ankhu and and Monarch butterfly (also figure out where on my body to but it)
18. get contacts and/or laser eye surgery (probably just the contacts)
19. See Bowling for Soup in Concert
20. have real conversation with my dad
21. learn first hand why hangovers suck at least once
22. Meet Stan Lee (maybe it don't know i'm kind of out of ideas by now)
so there it is what do u think?
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| up date on life |
[14 Jul 2007|07:56pm] |
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Hi,
Wow! First Live journal blog. Thought I would give an update on my life so here it goes:
I finally have internet and my laptop back. didn't go to the bowling for soup concert cause i called my step mom a fat ass at a family outing and my dad threatened to not pay for any school stuff my mom didn't ground me. mom really didn't care that said it cause my step mom really is like 300 lbs. anyhow i said it last Friday of last weekend and just got off groundment. Meaning not only could i not go to the concert but i could only have my phone while i was at work all week. In addition, even though my laptop was fixed Tuesday we did not pick it up until this morning.
Also my b-day (June 21) came and went with out one call or appearance from my dad. His excuse: he though i was at my grandma's. Which by the way takes the cake for being the LAMEST excuse i have EVER heard? My cell is under his plan, is always on, and charged. I being at my grandma's is no excuse not to call me! God him and his fat Ass, controlling pig of a wife piss me off! Anyhow, i got a digital camera so expect new stuff soon. My dad by the way has yet to give me my b-day gift. No, I am not bitter at all. No one bit! I swear Dennis (dad (mom's first husband)) can be just as useful as my biological father in CA who gave up his rights to my after i was born. Damn it all!
other than working 5 days a week, staying in ct for the summer, my dad being a jerk, not going to driving school for another year, and the car i was suppose to drive getting junked cause of a bad water pump. In addition, having no one to talk to for weeks. Still haven done my summer work I am pretty good. Oh yeah we are back in the new apartment/duplex in Ansonia. And i think that is it. Besides that, i am now 17. and my purple is almost gone. No worries though it is getting fixed in august bf school. Pics will be taken.
Also in really random news, i would never change my name. I have never really had a problem with Danielle. Dani was not that great growing up though. Also Torri spelling a reverend. My god will wonders never cease. it's not that i think she's an air head or something and i applaud her for doing same sex union, it's just that she got certified online and that bothers me. God, who thought of that, was some guy in his mom's basement with to much time on his hands say to his chat room buddy, you know i would love to be reverend but there are no school near me to go to i can't move. And his buddy suggests creating a school online. Ok i mean its great idea but sometimes i think people need to leave there houses for things.
Another thing i have a problem with, the Pope making a statement that all forms of Christianity other than Catholicism lack the ability to offer salvation. Gee Mr. Pope why don’t you just come right and say that you are going to go to hell unless if you are a catholic. This is one of the reasons why I am an elapse catholic besides that fact that i haven found another religion that i believe in. maybe that is the world’s problem we are so busy figuring out religion and fighting over it that somewhere along the line we have forgotten that all religion is a conduct and mortally code.
Love
Peace
and
Hand grenades
~Dani~
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